When the timeline becomes real
Last week, I got the go ahead from my advisor to reach out to the people who I hope will be on my dissertation committee. I had submitted my prospectus a couple of weeks prior and went through subsequent rounds of feedback, and that became the document I attached as I reached out to folks.
And now it feels REAL. — I mean, it felt real at every stage (like the initial draft I wrote, the dissertation applications I submitted that forced me to create a timeline, etc.) And yet, this, with a tentative idea of when I would like to propose my dissertation, suddenly concretized everything.
I feel paralyzed. On one hand, I am ecstatic to be at this stage and start writing: writing writing writing. On the other hand, this... is it. This the start to the end of my PhD program (dun dun duhhhhhh). And this is the culmination of my time in this program: this is my the next REALity.
In a year, I read somewhere around 100-200 books. I don't have a TV and I use reading as a form of escape, and I especially like reading outside of academia. It also helps with improving my writing :)
When I'm trying to concentrate, I like having background music that's super dramatic. For some reason, instrumental music is instrumental (pun!) in helping me concentrate. Most of the songs are Korean-drama OSTs (original sound tracks), w/ a few classical music scores in the mix!
I don't categorize anything other than my "random round-ups" because it takes too much work (insert laughing emoji).