Being Known

Today is the second day of Orientation and this morning, as I was getting ready, I found myself feeling… overwhelmed and unexcited. This is a feeling I haven’t had in a while– usually, I’m really excited to meet new people and hear about their stories, etc. So, as I procrastinated getting ready, I figured out why:

I was unknown.

In the majority of groups that I’m a part of, and for almost all the networking events I attend, I know at least a couple of people, or I happen to be organizing the event itself. As a result, I rarely go into situations where I’m not going to know anyone there. 

Why was it important for me, to be known? Well, to be frank, sometimes I’m tired and I like having people around me where I don’t have to explain myself all the time. In other words, I don’t have to be afraid of making mistakes or trying to be the best possible version of myself, because my friends already saw all the sides of me. Comfort. Security. Feeling safe. Also, making new conversation is hard and tiring at times. I run out of questions to ask. But when I’m known, I can have an off-moment– hell, even an off-day– and it’s fine because we have a wealth of scatter points that accounts for random outliers.

Of course, when I went to Orientation, I ran into people I met back in March. And we talked and shared and started building a community, so I know it’s going to be fine  It just happened to be a different sort of day and I was reminded of the privilege of having people around you who know you already.