I had a meeting with my advisor today. Prior to our meeting, our program asks us to fill out a "mentoring form" where we reflect on the year, achievements, goals for the next year, etc. During our meeting, while we talked about this form, she asked me point blank:
WHICH JONES ARE YOU TRYING TO KEEP UP WITH?
The question, was based on the multiple times I had written in the form, that I felt "not competitive." She asked me to name names: who were the people I kept comparing myself to? And in that moment, I realized I couldn't name any. They were all figments of my imagination-- an amalgamation of my own insecurities and a person I would never measure up to...
I don't know if I'll ever get over imposter syndrome-- and from all the TedTalk videos I've watched, it doesn't seem like it's something to "get over," but the conversation, and this question was a much needed reminder, and somewhat of a relief, to realize I was competing against an impossible me.
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In a year, I read somewhere around 100-200 books. I don't have a TV and I use reading as a form of escape, and I especially like reading outside of academia. It also helps with improving my writing :)
When I'm trying to concentrate, I like having background music that's super dramatic. For some reason, instrumental music is instrumental (pun!) in helping me concentrate. Most of the songs are Korean-drama OSTs (original sound tracks), w/ a few classical music scores in the mix!
I don't categorize anything other than my "random round-ups" because it takes too much work (insert laughing emoji).